I
sought to be true
true to myself
and true to the guiding hands
that affirmed me
The time has come to bear
the accusation of betrayal
to not betray my own soul
Is this now my test?
My lesson?
I hear names hurled at me
that I once thought belonged
only to the loathsome
I hear that I have
no heart
no honor
no shame
no decency
no respect
no faith
I hear that
I am not trustworthy
I am not honest
I am not considerate
I am injurious
I am selfish
these names
these accusations
they ring in my ears
and sicken my heart
for I wanted only to uplift
to heal
not to hurt
but I have learned
that hurt
can be caused in the name
of saving pain
this I have done
but never again
I live to grow
but I am not perfect
nor do I desire perfection
I listen
to the lessons in the wind
I transform
the pain of the past to light
I seek to free my soul
unite my heart and mind
For so very long
I looked outside myself for truth
but the journey has returned to me
The child, the warrior
The nurturer, the sage
I walk a new path
Those who wish to stay behind
and hurl stones of accusation
I am traveling beyond your reach
rising above the density
never to return
I
sought to be true 